there’s always something
I felt aware, hyper-aware, wide awake and captivated by a fear; the magnitude of which I had never felt before. In the days, weeks, months that followed, I tried to carry on as if nothing had happened. Gradually attending to “tuning in”my new point of view.
It seemed to have a few classic presets; insecurity, paranoia, crippling shyness and an all-consuming sense of general panic.
Like pawing blindly at the buttons and getting a Country and Western station every time